Lets talk Expectations

Thursday, 12 of December 2019

Expectation - A strong belief that something will happen or be the case.

From now on I'm officially labelling December 12th the official Deborah's hell on earth day lol. I say this because these last two years December 12th hasn't really been the best to me and I don't think it ever will. Last year this exact day I was denied entry into my own birthplace Cape Town, South Africa after being away for 3 whole years and when I tell you that was the most traumatising day of my life please do believe me because I had so many expectations that day and that was not one of them. Then we have present day today December 12th and what I had been expecting to happen this whole year just did a big fat 360º and dunked on me so we can all say my day started pretty shitty(excuse my lingo) but all in all and through this all every thing comes back to one word, Expectation. Now you might be asking yourself Deborah what is expectation well let me tell you. Expectation is a strong belief that something will happen or further yet Expectation is the case of uncertainty, expectation is an event that considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centered on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. With that said expectation can both be a good or bad thing but most importantly it can have a positive or negative outcome and with my experience on expectations I'd say It's just a bad thing in general, like I thing It's just better to discard expectations and just not have expectations or better yet just don't expect anything at all. Well with all that said I sure as heaven will be going into 2020 with a no expectations whatsoever energy meaning I won't be expecting anything and saving myself from further disappointing December twelves.